I’ve been on a metaphysical vacation.
You know when sometimes you just don’t feel like you don’t exist alongside everything happening around you. That seperation that occurs when you just can’t take it anymore. It’s like everything inside you tells you just not to care. I guess for me it’s best described as a come that effects everything except your physical pressence. Nothing matters, nothing feels real, you no longer have a sense of being. I think I started speaking jibberish their, but then again my brain feels like jibberish. I guess my “Recently Played” list in iTunes can explain my brain function. it feels so schizophrenic compared to my usual habits. Usually their is a mood that drives my music choice, or a desired mood that requires a particular sound. Right now I don’t know how I feel, or what I want to feel.
My “recently Played” list consists of; Eric B & Rakim, Blitzen Trapper, Enya, Eric Clapton, Xiu Xiu, Bloc Party, Animal Collective, Richard Bona, Blu & Exile, Dillanger Escape Plan, Mike tern, Hiromi, Asobi Seksu, Of Montreal, The Misfits, The Shins, Toky Police Club, Elzhi, MGMT, Mr. Bungle, Husker Du, Girl Talk, Frank Black, Iron & Wine, Massive Attack, Lykki Li, Peter, Bjorn & John, Cat Power, Nisennenmondai, Faith No More, Sugercubes, Blockhead, and further retardation. This might seem like the normal kind of list to you, but it is very much outside of my normal habits.
Music does make me feels better and has tendency to press my reset button from time to time. Like while listening to “Muppet Face” by Xiu Xiu off Le Foret. When it goes from his painful sorrowful howling to a cloud of noise that can’t be determines as anything real, it’s almost like my brain is washed. I think my brain has been washed about 20 times in the past 2 hours so maybe I should just call it quites for right now. Maybe a day off is all that I need. Let’s hope tomorrow does a body good and I’m back tomorrow at full speed.
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